Sarahishungry420:
Here's one for the Emetophiles
I have been bulimic since I was 9. I remember the first time I did it, I was so full but wanted another rice ball and 4th of july so I made myself throw up and it was like I unlocked a door that let me eat forever. But now at 31 Im dealing with some health problems. Im autistic so I like to binge eat but if I get overly full I can't keep it down anymore. I went to a brazillian steakhouse the other night for a friends birthday and got sick like 6 times every half hour i was running to the bathroom to puke what I just ate. I can't hold down large amounts of food anymore, even normal meals make me sick half the time. Im not doing it on purpose or to lose weight but I just can't hold binges down anymore and it makes me sad, but I was wondering if any guys were into Emetophilia and wanted me to record when I get sick/if stuffing to sickness is itself a fetish for anybody?
Dear OP--
There's absolutely NO judgement here.
Is this experience causing you distress? Do you feel emotionally uncomfortable or unsafe? Do you have physical symptoms you are not enjoying?
If the answer to the above questions is yes, I encourage you to put your emotional welfare first. Talk to a therapist. Heal yourself. Heal your body.
Keep in mind... I'm a 600 pound woman. My lifestyle wouldn't be considered conventionally healthy by any definition, but it's also not up for adjudication by strangers, and I would never do that to you. That's not my point.
I only hope you will take the time to ask yourself if you are comfortable where you are, before offering up ways in which you are struggling so other people can get off. If the answer is that you are doing well and are ready to take that journey, support you 100%.
